i thought i left it all behind. apparently not. till now, i never really understood what happened. perhaps there were misunderstandings, or maybe things just happened at the wrong times. or maybe it was just me. sometimes i wonder if i hadn't heard so much maybe things wouldn't be like that now. you may not have meant it, but you did. i lost myself, gave up so much for it, yet it was always the same. i tried you know, i really really did. but along the way it got too tiring. it was like trying to jam the pieces that you know will never fit, but you just keep trying and trying and trying, hoping that it just might. i was always me, me, me. aiyah, i really don't know what to believe anymore. but one thing for sure, you'll never understand those days when you left me there behind. all by myself. cos your life is fucking perfect. nothing ever goes wrong for you. nothing at all.
